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Thursday, May 08, 2008
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My mom's mothers day gift. Points up. I combined two of my lighthouse pictures into one, and added the chorus of Casting Crowns most beautiful song.
I'm printing it up in a 10x13 size. I'm getting myself one too. LOL
I let the kids have some old spray paint this morning. They had a blast with it in their garage attic room. And then Rainee managed to get in her eyes.
It figures.
Oh well, the trauma was over fairly quickly, and not nearly as bad as last summer when Samuel exploded his in his face.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
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The grass withers,
The flowers fade
But the word of our Lord stands forever.
Exhausted tonight. Awards night for Awana, so that is done. But baton is back in full swing. We have a parade that the kids will be in this weekend, as well as Mothers Day.
Next week is Misoula Childrens theater, so the kids will *not* be doing baton. I felt terrible opting out, but we've been planning on doing it since last year. So *shrugs*
Kids are doing well remembering the routines, which is good considering how long its been since they worked with the coach.
Samuel has been really struggling with my dad being gone. Tonight I finally took the time to talk to him a bit. I told him it was okay to be sad, and mad. It seemed to release some of the frustration from him. Hopefully it will make it a bit easier for him to deal.
Rainee had a MAJOR asthma attack tonight (about 30 minutes ago) Scared the crap out of me. Coughing, Crying, almost puking. Unable to talk, or decide what she needed. I gave her the meds she could have, and was trying to calm her down. Asthma is one of those crap shoots. You get asthma because your upset. Your upset because you have asthma. You make your asthma worse, you get more upset.
*sigh*
So her and Zeria are now splashing in the tub at 10;15 at night. It was what she needed to distract her into breathing. I had two different kids (sam and Kaylin) come and tell me. "She's calmed down now." Its a good indication of how much she scared us.
I'd love for them to be asleep, cause I'm using tooth picks to hold my eyes up. LOL But first she has to get out of the tub....
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
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sun breaks
My life is about sun breaks. Its about choosing to focus on the sunbreaks, and not the clouds. It doesn't mean I don't complain about the clouds and the rain and the mud. I recognize it causes growth. But come on I'm human. I prefer the sun breaks.
Even if they are minute. LOL Today miss Donnis is back and we are having a full day of baton. Its been a while. We will also pick up Zeria who spent some time at my moms. It was one of those things in hindsite I wish I hadn't done, as her sister Jdai decompensated when she got home from our sisters. But we talked on the phone yesterday and she seemed to be dealing. And mom said that Jdai had mellowed out, so hopefully it wasn't a mistake.
Its so hard right now. As the girls are so messed up. I know their messed up. I know why. And I know they need normalacy, but I can't do it at the expense of my kids. But they want to spend time with them. So we ration it out, and pray. And quite frankly at *this* point the girls at my moms house are a much worse influence then my dads visits. I can supervise my dad's visits. LOL
Okies in regards to jail. There is a review June 14th. At which time the DOC has been requested by the court to have the paperwork in regards to my dads possibility to qualify for counselling done. At that time the judge will decide if he thinks the counselling should happen or the jail time should happen. He's facing up to three years. This comes via my uncle, via my mom so its third party and could be garbelled. Rob wanted to be there for the sentencing, but its a hour and a half drive one way. And he's gone in THREE times and each time it was deferred. We just assumed this one would be too. But fortunately we found out my uncle went, so he was able to reveal what the judge said.
In regards to visiting my dad in jail. I looked up the info, he has to make the first move. He can call, but he has to figure that out. He has to make a visitors list, but I don't know if he knows. Its really really really NOT something I want to do, but I would...if he called. So far its not necessary as he hasn't apparently figured out how to do things.
I can write him, but am still reeling, and am not entirely sure what I would write. I will...I'm just dealing. Yeah that's my excuse.
I had it out with my 21 year old sister via email. This is the second time. Rob and I were laughing a bit at ourselves. We were madder at her *almost* then my dad. But its a different kind of mad. There are different kinds of angry ya know. There's the she's being sooooo stupid, and the anger at my dad. I think the "big" angers are sometimes easier to get over.
Any how she is one of those gushy, gushy, huggy, oh so affectionate people. When she's visibily present. When she's gone she forgets you exist. This is becoming increasingly hard on my kids. It brings up all of their feelings of abandonment each time they see her. This visit she offered to let one, two or three of her siblings (my kids) to stay in Portland. Rob's observation after she was gone was NOT in this lifetime.
See she has gotten in contact with her birth mom (who has stolen from her multiple times) her birth grandpa, and a myriad of cousins and a uncle. The uncle stole $100,000 from the kids. The will his mom left said that her house was to be divided between the grandkids. He *cough* chose to keep it. And she has him back in her life all hunky dory. He has boxes of beautifully done professional pictures of all of the kids except my boys that were supposed to go to the varying children. He kept them. Etc, etc, etc.
So my 13 year old sister came home with her baby blanket. "Uncle J was keeping it safe for me." "No, he stole it, and now he's grooming you with it." Rob and I were just absolutely creeped out. My kids will NOT be exposed to that. Ever.
So the first invitation I squirmed around, over and under. But decided we just needed to say. Umm not in this lifetime as tactfully as possible. Rob said I was much more tactful then he would have been.
I read it to him after I wrote it to make sure it was kind, and loving, but also explained why I didn't believe my children needed to be exposed to any of that.Not to mention that the birthmom threatened to take Jamari on several occasions.
So the vacation stirred up several other emotions as well. But thats life, and I'll focus on the sunny spots.
Monday, May 05, 2008
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We're back. We had a lovely time. We had a wee hitch. Which was I volunteered to pick up my 13 year old sister to save my mom gas money. My 22 year old sister was supposed to drive her to Seaside Saturday night. She was supposed to be there at 7. At 7:15 she called and asked if she could spend another night. Zeria was heartbroken and cried herself to sleep. We then had to figure out how to get her the next day, fully aware that my 22 year old sister is notoriously LATE to everything.
She was, but it was our only sunny day, and God graciously provided us a beautiful park to wait in for her...one we didn't know existed until we got there. So that complication mostly worked itself out.
The trip down started out drippy. Our first stop is usually Kalaloch...but this time we decided to get out at the big cedar tree instead...a slight less chance of drowning. Needless to say taking pictures in the drips wasn't great. So I don't have a good one of the full tree. But I did manage those two cute ones of Rainee and Sam.
And a lovely shot of a salmon berry flower.Our second stop was Westport. We actually hadn't meant to go down that way, we usually cut throw Raymond..but found ourselves there somehow and went along for the ride. We ate at a rest-stop and walked up to take a peak at the beach, and this.
The rest of the drive was after lunch and with full tummies most of us slept for several hours. (myself included) We woke up just before the Astoria bridge. After a quick stop at Fred Meyers (you can't go to Astoria without one.) we headed to our cabin.
KOA Kamping Kabins are the only way we can afford vacations. LOL And this particular KOA has a indoor swimming pool. The cabins are bare bones. Just bunk beds and a roof over your head. You have to rent a heater...but we knew this so brought one from home. We also brought our tv/dvd player for night time. No kitchen or anything...although theirs stoves available if your willing to walk up the hill. We however had a lovely little coleman stove, so we just used that. It was a fantastic gift from Rob's parents over 9 years ago and is still going strong.
It was cold most of the weekend. But we still had lots of fun just hanging out, and listening to hte kids yell. *snicker* I've been inspired to catch pictures of birds. So I spent some time capturing these guys. I finally mastered a nice shot of a crow! He was eating the cookie Jer abandoned. LOLFriday night we watched Flipper. I had snagged it at Fred Meyer for $9. The kids LOVED it. They were so still the whole movie. Jeremiah even watched ALL of it without moving or barely blinking.
The next morning we got up, and headed to sunset beach to drive. We drove all of it. The kids had been begging for this as they had had so much fun doing it when we went to Pacific Beach for my brothers birthday. They also wanted mommy to drive...as she's crazier. *snicker* So she did. And she was.
Lots of birds their, and I even managed to catch a couple fairly decent ones of the sand pipers, but I'll spare you.
The kids also got out and ran a good mile of the beach even though it was NASTY cold. Rainee however snagged a couple of "rides" She has a very nice big sister. And yes Zeria's barefoot the twit.
When done that we decided rather then going back to the cabin we would head up the coast. We were headed for canon beach, but instead ended up coughing up a whole $3 to go somewhere we'd never been before. It will now be a permanent destination when we're down there. We went to Ecola State Park. All I can say is WOW!
This picture almost shows you the depth of our view. My kids got out of the car all goofy, and giggly. But when they got a bit closer suddenly they all calmed down and got very sedate. It was a LONG ways down. Several of them would of been quite willing to skip that hike. *eg*
This is the Tillamook light house. It currently serves as a place to place your urn. I researched that when I got home cause it amazed me so much. The lighthouse was not being maintained, and they wanted to preserve it. So now for a price you can have eternity at sea, and the lighthouse is being preserved with the funs. Rather amazing somehow.
This view was just amazing. And of course my battery died right after I took the above picture. And it was 15 minutes to the nearest place to purchase batterys. *growl* Its probably a good thing cause I would have taken 50 more shots. It was however NASTY cold when we were there, so the kids were greatful to get back in the car...even if mom and dad could have spent a month there.
We then went back to the cabin, played in the pool, ate lunch, took a nap (that would be me.) When we woke up we decided it was time to go splore again. After some meandering we decided to go to Rob's and I's favorite light house Cape Disappointment.
We were especially excited when we got there as the light was actually going, something that had never been true before. So I spent a long time
attempting to get a picture of it.
So imagine my joy when I finally got this.
Okay unless your a photographer maybe you don't get it. But I cheered when I saw it on my view screen LOLThe next morning we headed out to go home. But not quickly.
We stopped in Astoria for a brief second so I could take a picture of this beautiful building.
And then we stopped along the Columbia on Highway 30 in a little town named Rainier. (On the Oregon side.)
The park was lovely and it was *gasp* sunny. We all ended up getting tiny sunburns by the end of the day, but we didn't care. It was sunny!
Eventually my sister showed up, we loaded up and headed to the Nisqually bird sanctuary.
We found this accidentally quite awhile back, and now make it a rest stop if at all possible. And this time I *knew* I had a camera capable of taking decent pictures there which made it even more fun.
I zoomed up on this fella who was actually below the boardwalk. A lovely spotted bull frog.
A fun picture of a Canadian goose.We looked and walked, and enjoyed ourselves. I didn't take quite as many pictures as I thought I would, but did still manage quite a few, but am only
sharing my very favorites.
Almost back to the car Rainee spotted this.As I'd never seen one in the wild before I was quite thrilled. We all stood and watched him a LONG time.
The whole walk we'd been watching for red-wing black birds, and we were quite disgusted as usually we saw tons. And I just *knew* I was gonna get a great picture of one. We got all the way back to the car and I had one so-so one that I wasn't sure would turn out or not. It actually did not bad. But regardless we headed to the bathrooms before heading out, and while I was waiting I leaned on the inside observation deck, and a red-wing flew up about 10 feet in front of me and preened. I managed to snag ten fun shots right after another. LOL
The rest of the drive was uneventful. One very brief go to the bathroom in the car reststop, and then my moms house. My sister Rissa had made us meat loaf and potatoes. We ate, picked up my dad's dog, and headed home.
We all love Major so much. HE is the best big dumb. He's a 14 year old Lab who is just a big love. He's also ancient LOL. My sister shows two dogs, and can't keep the ancient one in my moms little rentle. And Rob and I felt strongly this dog deserves a good home to "retire" in. So he mmoved in and made himself at home. I just absolutely needed a fifth dog after all. *snickers*
He's just fine. And Rob's in love as he instantly bonded with Rob. Baby our littlest dog isn't so much in love. And every time she sees him its like a new discovery and she barks and barks and barks.
Baby is NOT my favorite dog right now. LOL
In regards to emotions, etc. We'll save those for another day. Enjoy my pictures.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
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My dad *is* in jail.
I'm a bit of a basket case. Rob asked me what I needed and I said I needed to just get out of here.
So that's what we're going to do.
We don't have a ton of money, and its probably stupid. But we've both been needing a break.
So we are headed to our favorite place Astoria to stay at the camping cabins. We will leave as soon as Rob gets off work.
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